Hello reader,
Today I woke up on a chilly morning and got ready to venture
out of my home and into town to run errands. Venturing out of my home is a big
deal where I am concerned because I’m perfectly content with being a hermit and
I’d go weeks without actually going out in public. My reasoning is that I have
everything I need at home; I work from home on a desktop which means I have no important
reason to go out other than running errands, of course. Today however, I was *so* excited.
It started with me being up early. It’s wintertime here in
South Africa so it’s a struggle to get out of warm, cosy blankets in the
mornings so I give myself a pat on the back for getting out of bed at 5am.
*pats self* Anyway I went outside and greeted my dog; the usual morning routine
but this morning was different. I felt consciously alive. I took a moment to
breathe in the cold air, to look at the trees and flowers moving in the breeze,
the birds flapping their wings as they went about their day and I paid
attention to my beating heart. I felt glad then, that I was alive. I wasn’t the
only one alive; the dogs with their fervent licking and excited jumping, the
birds, the trees and even the grass…were alive. I felt comforted that I was not
alone.
In my feeling of aliveness, I jogged the short driveway
distance to unlock the gate with the dog, Krogan, who is always up for
accompanying me whenever I venture outside. I jumped, leaped and skipped. I
felt like a kid. To an on-looker, I bet I just looked happy. I was that and
more; I was celebrating being alive.
I went to town and I met up with a friend of mine from
school then I met up with another friend. I spent hours talking to them and
that’s one thing the internet doesn’t give you; real human interaction and let
me tell you, I was glad to meet up with friends for once instead of always
visiting my cousins. It felt great to catch up and it reminded me how a lot has
changed since high school. We’re all older, hopefully a little wiser and we’re
all just starting out in our careers.
I’m pleased too, that I’ve simplified my life, most
specifically the business side of my life. If you follow me on Twitter you’ll
see that I have been busy with Allebasi and it underwent a whole new makeover
and you can check out the website here. It took me ages, a whole lot of stress
and worry but now that it’s done, I am able to breathe again. Kudos to a simple
life!
What I really loved about today was that for the first time
in so long, I felt content. I didn’t feel as if something is missing or wrong
in my life and I didn’t worry about fixing that problem. I was in the moment
and guess what, I lived. Really lived.
I want you to tell me the last time you’ve felt alive. What
went through your head then? Could you describe the feeling?
‘Til next time
-Bella
